Things I've Learnt From 2016

Well 2016 has been a confusing and difficult year for me. I finished college, had my 19thbirthday and had a tricky time with relationships and friendships.

Throughout 2016 I have been trying to figure out what my next steps are in terms of a job and I still don’t know and for a while I kept getting frustrated and upset that all my friends are going off to Uni or getting into relationships or have been in a happy stable relationship for a few years and are now buying a house with their boyfriend/girlfriend and I’m still sat at home not knowing what I’m doing, not being able to drive and cleaning the house for my parents for money. For a long time, I resented this way of living.The truth is I do want to go to Uni in the sense of being independent and meeting new people and making friends but because of my dyslexia, dyspraxia and dyscalculia I would find it very hard. You see I have always struggled in education because of my learning difficulties and I want to make something clear this does not make me stupid, it makes me more interesting haha!

I have also throughout this year struggled badly with my anxiety and depression, I don’t really know how it happened, I have always had anxiety. But depression? That’s new! This also didn’t come in handy with this next topic…

Boys, lads, the male species where do I begin with this? I’m a single 19-year-old girl and I’m interested in having a long-term relationship, that of course has not gone to plan as I’m still single. The thing is a lot of lads that are my age and a little bit older are only interested in a casual physical relationship, I don’t have much luck in the relationship front, I have been lied to, used, lead on, a lot of stuff really. I have only had one good relationship that ended by my doing because I realized me and this person were better of as just friends, he was my best friend before we got together and he still is now.

For a while I kept getting hurt by people, friends included. Until one day I decided the people that were a negative influence on my life shouldn’t be in it. So, I deleted them off all social media and I started to feel better. I have now accepted that I won’t be single forever and the right person for me could enter my life at any moment, who knows maybe they’re already in my life. I need to be move confident in myself and love myself more, it’s time to focus on me.

I am entering 2017 with a positive mind. My new year’s resolutions are to focus on myself, be positive, do things for me and not for other people and to be the best version of me that I can be.

To all my readers, family and friends I wish you all the best for 2017, make it a year to remember, make a list of all the things you want to achieve in this next year, follow your heart and remember that it’s okay to put yourself first sometimes.

‘All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to peruse them’- Walt Disney